Monday, April 25, 2011
No one.
When my 姑婆(my father's aunt, also called her 妈妈) asked me why did I look so gloomy these few days and asked me to say it out so that I can feel better, I could not utter a word.Life was never happy for me from the beginning.
I'd rather have no family and friends so I could do whatever I like, and I do not have to care about what other people feel.
I feel like moving out.
I need to have a lot of money to make this happen.
I want to live my life as an adult. Properly.
妈妈 feels a lot like my mother than my real mother was.
She asked me to talk to other close friends if I have a problem and keep it inside me.
She said it would be very 辛苦 for me.
But who can I talk to? It's not like I can find any 阿猫阿狗 to talk to.
Close friends are just in name. True friends are hard to find.
Facade, all facade.
maybe 笨蛋？I don't dare to bother him. He's setting up a family soon, so how can I disturb him by telling him my sorrows?
It's ok, I'll be fine. Finding more reasons to carry on with life rather than all these regrets.
Get it over and done with.
杀无赦。
虚伪的人。
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